It’s 2018, that means new year, new me. Right? Not so much, but that isn’t necessarily a bad thing.. I just want to become successful.
“Success means being satisfied with what you do every day. Its being proud of the better person you are becoming.” – Dwayne Wade
I have learned so much over the past few years, I’ve learned about all kinds of love. I’ve learned about intentions and the significance of the differences in the actions of people as compared to their words. Time travel doesn’t exist but if there were some way to deliver a letter to my 17 year old self, here’s what I would say:
Hey Angel, you hate that name right now, but give it a few years and it’ll become your greatest power. It’s how you’ll reinvent yourself when a fresh start is what you need. You’re so young (about 17 and a half right now), you’re about to have your heart broken, you’re not at the best place in life right now but at least you aren’t depressed anymore. I wish I could say that the shitty high-school experiences you just went through are the worst it’ll ever be for you, but they aren’t. Things get worse.. at least for a while they will, try not to be too grim about it though. You’ll figure everything out. You’ll love and you’ll have your heart broken three more times, one of which will have been worth it. You’ll learn that people don’t mean everything they say but trust your instincts, they’ve never let us down. You’ll go through the most traumatizing, awful experiences of your life, but they’ll be what grows us to become incredibly resilient. The kind heart and compassion that the people in our life have shown us to have for others will play a key part in our healing. Help people when you’re sad, do that and in return, it’ll help you. This will happen between who you are at 17 and who we’ve grown to be. Who do we grow to be exactly? Well not to brag but we’ve built a voice for us that conveys power through our words. We’ve helped some of the kindest people through the hardest times in their life. We get really good at advice but we still inherently suck at taking it. We get closer to our loved ones and see the importance of a good support system. We aren’t perfect though. We’ve done things we would be judged for but no one regrets those things more than us. We learn from those things and that’s what’s important. We learn compassion, and open-mindedness, we learn to be empathetic of others, we learn about forgiveness, we grow and continue to grow still. Keep your head up. We have one body, and we were given but one soul.. and the experiences we’ve been through have paved the way for us to love that one body and one soul. Oh ya! We finally decided to go by Angel, I’ll tell you why but that’s for another time. You don’t love you yet, but I love you, God loves you, and your family and friends love you. Always remember that. See you soon.
We live and we learn but more than either of those combined, we adapt. To the weather, to the actions and reactions of each person we interact and have relationships with, to stomach turning, heart-wrenching situations.. we adapt in order to survive but when that becomes routinely second nature— we adapt to improve. That’s all I ever hope for out of this new year and the New Years to come: to retain the lessons I’ve learned in the years prior and to build upon them & remain humble. Here’s to a better you and a better me, in 2018.